I don't even know what i'm saying. So please restrain from questioning.

I feel like this blog is going to be like, my diary without names. Does that make sense? I sure hope so. I've been feeling kind of, i don't know, different lately. You see, I'm going to a new school this year - oh yes. I am a, I hate to say it, New kid.............The term EVERY kid should fear the most. I have never been a new kid at any school, or in any sports. Starting out being new at MY AGE? Not the best. I only know one guy going to my school, but I haven't talked to him in years. What's a girl supposed to do? I have no clue. My guy friend, has been kind of odd lately. Is it normal for a boy to revolve around you during the school year, but not talk to you during the summer AT ALL? I don't honestly know. it confuses me. I'm real sorry if I'm babbling on about things you couldn't care less about. Like I said, this is kind of a way to vent. But, I'm really just venting to myself. I don't know. My typing looks really depressing - usually I use a lot of acronyms and Smileys but, I don't know. I feel like I should type proper for this? Maybe. My mind has it's own mind.... Wow. That made way more sense in my head. I've changed the subject in this paragraph about 4 times. Lovely. Lately I feel like I am anti-social. Hiding from the world. But, It's not like I'm meaning to. I mean, I try to get myself out there, Hang out with people, Family, Friends, But I just feel so, Isolated. Like nothing can touch me. I'm in my own little shell and until I get to school and get used to it, there's no way of getting me out. I don't mean to sound emo - cause I'm not. People think I am. But I'm not. When I write or type or even in person, I seem all happy and smiley - and thats cause I am. I think It's because I bottle up emotions. I hold them all in until I get a chance like this - to write. I'm not complaining, Life is good. It's just stressful and confusing at times. Anyone else feel like this? I need reassurance.